My name is Brieana and I'm in love with a girl name Maryann<3 people might laugh but i dont care what they think this is my reality so ill embrace the fuck out of it. I swear to tell the truth, the whole truth and nothing but the truth.
I guess everyone goes through it. in the end you have to realize that even if you do change, its whos there for you in the end that matters. i lost a friend because of change. did i want this? no. but i can’t pretend everythings okay.
this house is so beyond annoying. when i get out the house and do things with my friends i get shit for it but when they leave its fine. wtf do you want from me. yea i understand what the deal is but really I’m supposed to read your minds and figure out what you want. just tell me straight up I’m not a kid, and stop acting like your my mom. your my sister you twat muffin im sick of you nagging and judging me all the time. and you wonder why i don’t tell you shit sometimes its cause i hate it here im sick of you guys making me feel bad. if you want something from me just fucking tell me you act like im going to be mad. irk my fucking life can’t wait to get the fuck out this house.
i hate seeing you on fb. a big part of me wants to erase you. its been a while since we have had a real conversation. i know how things ended, and i know why they ended. but honestly a huge part of me still loves you. that kills me. i have such an amazing girl in my life. she loves me, shes there for me. so why do i still feel the way i do for you? i dream about you and it sucks. i fight myself to not text or call you. what will it be like when we run into each other in the future? do i say hi? give you a hug? or turn around and act like i didnt see you? it kills me that you were once my best friend and that i onced loved you so much. its hard to not think about you from time to time. its hard wondering if you sometimes think of me too. all i know is that no matter how much times i tell myself to forget you, it only makes me miss you more.
soooooooo… summer is half way gone and soon the next semester will begin. i hate the begin because everything is about money. i just want to spend the money i get from school on the things i really need. after that i want to save up as much as i can so that we don’t struggle throughout the semester. if only it was that easy. i know it wont be but i’m gunna try.
I hate working on this video. its so damn annoying! i want it to be perfect i want her to absolutely love it but i keep changing things i don’t think ill be done with it by the 16th. so is so annoying I’ve never been so paranoid about anything I’ve made for her. i could draw her the ugliest drawing on earth and give it to her like I’m a pro and not give a damn but this? no I’m going OCD on it. on a brighter note i finally have a good song but i might just end up changing my mind again. lol
this weekends going to be a total bummer i know it already. i swear it i dont get a call soon im gunnah go fucking bananas. im so tired of waiting for them to call jus hire me already. lol ugh this is crazy. im tired of being jobless. i need a job already. and i know that even though ill have money after that, I’m going to be given bills to pay. I’m not complaining i just hope i have money left over for me. that might sound selfish but to me its not. i dont mind helping because after all my family does support me and i do need to do my part.
